I Get Knocked Down, But I Get Up Again…
…You're Never Gonna Keep Me Down. At least that's how the lyrics to the song “Tubthumping” go. I happen to like that particular line a lot, though I can do without the rest of the lyrics.
That refrain from the song has been running through my head this evening, however. I've come pretty close to tears a few times today because the last few days have been a huge emotional roller coaster.
There have been a lot of ups – my brother came to visit, Galen is eating well, and January was my highest income month, ever – by a pretty large margin. It's super exciting to see my hard work paying off. It gives me a warm rush to think that all my studying and testing is really working.
But then there's the inevitable downs, and wow, have there been a lot this week – and it has hardly gotten started.
Transferring my sole proprietorship into an LLC has been very exciting, but it has also been a little trying. It's confusing to figure out everything I need to do. And it's a bit intimidating. I was able to get the bank accounts set up just fine, but applying for credit for the LLC has been challenging. Since my credit was absolutely ruined during my first marriage I am still trying to get back to the place I was before. It's really aggravating that three years of never being late on the one credit card I was able to keep hasn't seemed to make much difference in my credit score.
Basically what it means is that the LLC will be completely bootstrapping it for awhile. I've bootstrapped pretty much the entire way so I don't really mind, but it's hard not to let the “powers that be” of the credit world get demoralizing in their judgements.
Then I have a package coming that I've been waiting for. It was supposed to get delivered today, but it's apparently lost somewhere since it didn't get here. And the tracking on the package hasn't been updated in about five days. So God only knows where that thing is.
Then, there's Google. I love Google, actually. I like the Adsense program because it pays me well (lol). And I like Adwords, I like Gmail, I even like Google Wave. But apparently Google doesn't quite like the LLC because I cannot get the LLC approved for an Adsense account. This causes issues because, well, the LLC is about to own Natural Birth and Baby Care – and Getting-Pregnant.com . Getting-Pregnant doesn't serve Adsense yet, but Natural Birth and Baby Care certainly does. So now I need to figure out how to please Adsense – and their customer support is really unfriendly. There's really no way I can get in contact with them to find out exactly what they think is wrong. I got a generic “your site is under construction” message and, well, this site is not exactly “under construction.” It's pretty constructed!
On top of trying to find packages, decipher Google, and get over the insults of credit denials, I'm way, way behind on writing. So I have tons of articles to write and post and get done. All while I'm trying to sort all of this stuff out.
Oh, and my brother went home. Which makes me sad because I don't know when I'll see him again.
But at least we had a visit. And Galen is eating well. And Scott is happy because his package did arrive today. And, well, I shattered my income goals for last month. That's always cool.
But sometimes the bad things outweigh even the very good, so I found myself looking at my goal board and I found myself reading something over and over again. I can't remember where this came from originally so forgive, but I'm going to type it out here. Because yeah, I may get knocked down – but I'll get up again. Nothing will keep me down.
[box type=”shadow”]”If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you don't.
If you like to win but think you can't
It is almost certain you won't.
If you think you'll lose, you're lost.
For out of the world we find
Success begins with a fellows' will.
It's all in the state of mind.
If you think you are outclassed, you are.
You've got to think high to rise;
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man;
But soon or late the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can.”[/box]
This battle is going to the gal who knows she can 🙂